8 years ago tonight I was in the hospital being induced with my second son Jacob! How exciting is that! And I had a great epidural, too! I had a ton of pregnancy complications, so I was induced at 36 and 6/7 weeks. I have never experienced spontaneous labor. I was induced all 3 times. With Jacob I had hyperthyroidism, tachycardia, pre-eclampsia and low amniotic fluid. I also had horrible carpal tunnel, and willingly went to the hand surgeon for injections in my wrists to ease the discomfort from the carpal tunnel. I also had low blood sugar episodes, and had to monitor my blood sugar. And I willingly got pregnant again with Joshua after all that!
Cambria's birth mother did NOT get induced with her. How interesting is that? I was induced all 3 times, and my daughter's birth mother was not induced with her. Maybe partly because she was young and healthy?
Anyways, I keep thinking about that night....8 years ago tonight. Such sweet anticipation....anxiously waiting for him to arrive. He is such a sweet kid. He had the biggest blue eyes!
I remember driving to the ultrasound appt saying to myself, "I really want a girl, but what if it really is a girl??!" Almost like I was afraid if it was a girl. Jacob is a sweet, sensitive child. Before Cambria came along, I used to say that God didn't give me a girl because he gave me Jacob!
Dave and I always say that if Jacob was a girl, we'd only have 2 kids. God totally had a plan in mind for us. He put us on this special path to have not one, not two, but three boys. And then we got our girl! And if Jacob was a girl, then we would totally miss out on Joshua and Cambria. God wanted us to have Jacob and Joshua and Cambria all after Zachary. In that order. I'm so glad (obviously) that Jacob is my son and I get to be his momma and raise him.
I hope my adoptive momma friends won't be mad at me for saying this. I love my adopted daughter. But I am glad I got to experience pregnancy and childbirth first-hand. It changes you. (And I don't mean the stretch marks and hemorrhoids and bladder issues- HA!) And I never had to worry about a birth mom changing her mind about placement with my 3 biological children. I just got to enjoy their pregnanciess and births and infancies without worrying about adoption issues and people changing their minds and relinquishments getting signed and home studies and post-placement visits and court finalizations, etc. etc. By the time Cambria was in our lives, I realized just how special an experience her birth was, and how meaningful it was that her birth mother placed her with us. I'm not sure if I would have appreciated her selfless act as much as I did if I hadn't experienced growing a baby in my uterus and delivering her and the instant bond of mother and child beforehand. I knew quite well what Cambria's birthmother was giving up by placing her for adoption. And so did she-- because she already had children that she was parenting. I am glad that I got to grow my family thru having biological children and the miracle of adoption. :)
Happy 8th birthday to my sweet middle son Jacob Ryan at 5:20 AM on March 11th! I love you sooo much!
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