Superstitious

The day I drove home from our failed adoption in San Francisco in April 2011, I was wearing this slate blue colored track suit with bling on the jacket and pants.  I hardly ever wore that track suit again after that fateful day.

Then we got the call on Sunday, September 23,  2012 that Cambria's birthmom was in labor at the hospital, and was 5 cm dilated!  In North Carolina!  I scrambled around to throw some stuff in a suitcase and get the hell out of town and on the red-eye flight to North Carolina that night!  Guess what I wore?  That slate blue track suit and some comfy tennis shoes.

That is kind of anti-superstitious, right?  If I was being superstitious, I would never have worn that track suit to another adoption meeting!  I was bound and determined to "make it right" this time....to make it work out.

I only slept one hour that night.  I was no nervous and giddy with excitement about the fact that I was going to meet my daughter soon!

Did I mention I went there by myself?  Dave had to re-arrange his work schedule and take care of some other things before he could fly out on Monday afternoon.

And don't worry....I didn't wear the track suit to meet my daughter and her birthmom!  I changed beforehand. 

Track suit or no track suit, the stars were aligned the right way and Cambria was supposed to be our daughter.  And for that, I am grateful.

 I keep thinking back to the first day, week, month with Cambria.  It was so wonderful (it still is).

And for some other news:   Dave had his procedure yesterday- he had an ERCP done.  He has gall stones in his gall bladder and also stuck in his common bile duct.  The ERCP is a scope that goes down his throat and reaches into the common bile duct and gets the gall stones out, so they can't obstruct things.  (In this family, just the word obstruction gives me the heebie jeebies due to Dave's issues with bowel obstructions in the past.)  Anyways, the procedure went well (WHEW!) and we got home from the hospital last night.   He was trying to get me to go thru McDonald's drive-thru on the way home (Hello!  More gallstones!  Just what his gall bladder needs!  HA!) then he was trying to eat ice cream (he snuck some sherbet).  Ahhhh.....doctors are the worst patients.   OK, so 1 out of 2 done.  He is scheduled to have his gall bladder surgery down in Phoenix next Friday.  Since he has complicated anatomy, the liver transplant surgeon has to do his surgery, since he is comfortable working in that small area.  I'm nervous, but then I think that he's having his gall bladder removed, NOT something as major as a liver transplant-- so things could always be worse.  And the best surgeon in Phoenix is doing the surgery.  I think I would be seriously freaking out if he needed a liver transplant surgery.  But this is still scary enough.  My kids need their father.  I need him too, but my kids really need the guidance and love of their father.

So while we were at the hospital yesterday (for 5 hours), all the horrific events that happened in Connecticut were all over the news.  I was a little late catching up on all that since I was in the hospital, and a little bit pre-occupied.  My youngest son is starting kindergarten in August, and I would be absolutely devastated if that happened to him or any of my other kids.  I feel so sad for everyone affected by this senseless tragedy.  What purpose did it serve for this nut job to kill all those innocent kids and school staff that he didn't even know?  Who was he trying to get back at by doing that?  These people who do these mass shootings need to re-direct their anger and get their mental illness under control and learn how to cope with life and the crap it deals them and all the unfair crap that happens in life without killing other people.  I've had to deal with my fair share of crap in life so I know first-hand that life can suck really bad at times, but you need to grow up and face the music and learn how to deal with your problems in a non-violent way.  He had no right to deal with his issues by killing innocent people.

OK, end rant. 

And we woke up to snow this morning!  I'm dreaming of a white Christmas!  :)