I can't believe tomorrow is Thanksgiving! At first, I felt bad for not doing the daily thankful post. I just did one big one on my blog with some fun, silly things to be thankful for (cupcakes and Miss Me Jeans, anyone?!) as well as the usual things: family, friends, my family's health and that Dave has a job, etc. But that was it. Then I started noticing several people making snarky comments about the daily thankful posts! So it wasn't just me.
Some people who only know me on FB and didn't see what I wrote on my other blog might think the same thing about me...that I am trying to portray my life as sunshine and rainbows and unicorns. Bad stuff happens to me in real life (IRL), too. I just don't want to put it all out there on FB. I've had to endure my fair share of bad crap too.
A couple years ago, my husband almost died, for Christ's sake. That's enough to rock your world a few times over. I've recently lost 2 people in my life that I considered really close friends. When I say lost, I don't mean that they disappeared in the jungle or died. They chose to excuse themselves from my life. But not before they left with some mean parting words. That was pretty soul crushing. I haven't been invited to some big parties when most of my friends have been invited. Last Christmas, I got strep throat and then shingles and then my immune system went haywire and I developed this auto-immune disease where it caused a rash over 95% of my body....for months and months and months. I. LOOKED. HIDEOUS. I mean really hideous. That really messes with your psyche. I resorted to ordering off the internet this huge bag of bath salts from the Dead Sea in Isreal that is supposed to help with skin ailments. (Thankfully it's better now! WHEW!) We had a really bad adoption fall-through last year. I felt terrible about that even up until the day I got the call about Cambria. Right after our adoption fell through last year, I had a mammogram that looked abnormal. I had to go back for more views. Talk about scary and wanting to throw up in the car the whole way back to the radiology office. It turned out to be nothing after all. WHEW, again!
The way that things have worked out with Cambria becoming my daughter has made me once again feel right with the world. It made me realize again to TRUST. MY. INSTINCTS. And not to let other people make me feel so bad about things. I knew that other match wasn't the right one for our family. Other people have their own issues going on, and some of them try to project their own crap onto you and your life. And other people can be hypocrites.
Anyways, I love reading adoption blogs and am happy when other adoptive families get matched. I notice some blogs where the adoptive mom doesn't talk about their child's birthmom. At all. I always wish they would...to give us some insight. Well now that I have my baby, I find myself in that same boat. I am fiercely protective of her! I talked to her birth mom last night, and it was a nice conversation. She is a pretty funny girl and it warmed my heart to hear us laughing together about funny things she said. I don't feel competition. Cambria has 4 parents who love her. And what could be better than double the love?!
OK one thing that I am thankful for:
We recently had our Christmas pictures taken for our holiday cards. My photographer just posted a few pictures on my FB page. OMG they are amazing. I AM THANKFUL FOR: my photographer, who makes me look like a rock star in the pictures! ;) hee hee hee
(So much like a rock star that my mother called me and asked if that was ME in the pictures! LOL!!)
And I'm thankful for the obvious: my parents, husband, children, family, good health, Cambria's birth parents, cupcakes, shoes, Miss Me Jeans (they are so forgiving! HA!), my wonderful friends, the opportunities I was given in life, music, headbands, hair dye and my amazing hair stylist.....ha ha ha-- I could go on and on! You get the point! Life is overall really good, and despite the bad stuff I've had to endure, I'd still rather be me and have my life.
Now go eat some turkey! Or Tofu turkey (? Tofurkey?) if you are a vegetarian! :)
Tomorrow: a picture of my little turkey in her "My First Thanksgiving" shirt!!
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