Our Easter was really nice. We went to Scottsdale for the weekend and stayed at our favorite resort and spent Saturday at the water park there and then had dinner with my parents and brother and his fiance and then Sunday did the huge egg hunt at the hotel. Really fun! And the weather was perfect.
2 days ago it was a bizarre weather day here in Northern AZ. We had snow, rain, wind, hail and then the sun came out!
I had the kids' pictures taken for the boys' birthdays which are all close from January-June. And yes of course I had pictures taken of Cambria too, because she is so darn cute and why not! I hope to post some of those pictures when I get the CD.
We had some friends and their kiddos over last night for dinner. Perfect ending to a Sunday night!
Monday, April 28, 2014
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
I'm Not Even Sure What to Title This! HA!
You guys. I haven't blogged since March 25th! What is going on with me?! I am becoming the worst blogger. I was out of town last week at my annual medical conference I go to. It was down in Scottsdale, and the weather was beautiful. I got to sit and listen to some good lectures, and catch up with my friends and old colleagues. Plus eat lots of good food. Plus some shopping and massages and lunch with my bestie. Pure bliss!
So much of what I want to talk about on here, I can't because this blog is a public blog. Things like the ups and downs and details of having an open adoption. Most days are great. Some days have speedbumps. Occasionally I have these fleeting thoughts of closing the adoption a bit, maybe becoming semi-open instead of fully open. Then a few days go by, and I'm ok with the amount of openness. It is an interesting body of water to navigate. That's for sure. Right now I feel like it's an open adoption between me and her birth mother and birth grandmas and birth-aunts and the adoptive mother of her new birth sister. And it will be that way until Cambria is older and able to talk on the phone and skype and be able to realize who she is talking to. Which is good and bad, all at the same time.
I had bought Cambria an outfit 3 years ago. Well, let me clarify. I bought the baby I thought would be Cambria this darling purple outfit over 3 years ago. Then that adoption fell apart....it fell apart bad.... 3 years ago tomorrow. We were at the hospital in San Fran with the baby in our arms, and D and I both got this awful feeling in our stomachs that this was not the baby that was meant to be ours. So we walked away. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do and one of the worst days of my life. It took me a long time to get over it and for the guilt to subside. It wasn't until Cambria was a couple months old that I finally was able to not feel so bad about the outcome of that match. Now I know that Cambria was meant to be our baby, and I'm glad we listened to our guts. I hate that we hurt that birth mom's feelings, but happy we did what was right for everyone involved in the end. OK so anyways, I had this 3-6 month adorbs purple outfit for summertime, but Cambria was that size in the winter, so she couldn't wear it. So it hung in her closet, and I just couldn't bring myself to give it away to strangers at the Go.od Wi.ll for example because of the significance of it. So when I laid eyes on Cambria's new birth sister, I knew exactly who it was meant for! She looks so good in purple, and the outfit will fit her this summer. I sent it to her, along with some other baby gifts a couple weeks ago. That outfit is in the right place, and I'm so happy I could give it to her sister.
So tomorrow is the 3-year anniversary of our previous match falling apart. It was devastating. Even though we were the ones who walked away. So what am I doing tomorrow? Why, I'm taking my 4 kiddos to get their pictures taken for a combined birthday-picture session!! No better way to celebrate it, in my opinion! :) (And then we have 2 baseball games after that, of course!)
It's baseball season here until the end of May, so my posts will be scarce.
I do want to mention one more thing. D's SIL's birthday was Saturday. I actually texted her and wished her a happy birthday. So did Dave. She actually replied back to both of us but simply said, "thank you". She didn't even use any punctuation. Hey, at least she replied. I texted her twice in the previous couple of weeks to see how she was doing, and she couldn't even be bothered to respond to me. This might sound so weird, but it made me feel good to wish her a happy birthday and be the bigger person. And now she can't say we forgot her birthday this year. I acutally don't think she is doing well health-wise. She did have her 9-year anniversary on her birthday of surviving a GBM (you can google it, but it's a stage 4 brain tumor with is almost always fatal within 18 months of diagnosis. She has somehow beat the odds and has made it for 9 years). She was recently in the hospital for blood clots in the lungs. So once again she survived the odds and survived the PE's, which can be fatal. She is like a cat with 9 lives.
OK that's all about her. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but both my older boys got straight A's for the 3rd quarter this year.....that's straight A's all year for them so far! I'm so proud! Joshua is too young to get letter grades still.
All 3 of my boys played catcher this week at their baseball games! We are literally at the baseball field 5 to 6 nights a week!
Well, that's all for now. Happy Easter to everyone!!
So much of what I want to talk about on here, I can't because this blog is a public blog. Things like the ups and downs and details of having an open adoption. Most days are great. Some days have speedbumps. Occasionally I have these fleeting thoughts of closing the adoption a bit, maybe becoming semi-open instead of fully open. Then a few days go by, and I'm ok with the amount of openness. It is an interesting body of water to navigate. That's for sure. Right now I feel like it's an open adoption between me and her birth mother and birth grandmas and birth-aunts and the adoptive mother of her new birth sister. And it will be that way until Cambria is older and able to talk on the phone and skype and be able to realize who she is talking to. Which is good and bad, all at the same time.
I had bought Cambria an outfit 3 years ago. Well, let me clarify. I bought the baby I thought would be Cambria this darling purple outfit over 3 years ago. Then that adoption fell apart....it fell apart bad.... 3 years ago tomorrow. We were at the hospital in San Fran with the baby in our arms, and D and I both got this awful feeling in our stomachs that this was not the baby that was meant to be ours. So we walked away. It was one of the hardest things I've had to do and one of the worst days of my life. It took me a long time to get over it and for the guilt to subside. It wasn't until Cambria was a couple months old that I finally was able to not feel so bad about the outcome of that match. Now I know that Cambria was meant to be our baby, and I'm glad we listened to our guts. I hate that we hurt that birth mom's feelings, but happy we did what was right for everyone involved in the end. OK so anyways, I had this 3-6 month adorbs purple outfit for summertime, but Cambria was that size in the winter, so she couldn't wear it. So it hung in her closet, and I just couldn't bring myself to give it away to strangers at the Go.od Wi.ll for example because of the significance of it. So when I laid eyes on Cambria's new birth sister, I knew exactly who it was meant for! She looks so good in purple, and the outfit will fit her this summer. I sent it to her, along with some other baby gifts a couple weeks ago. That outfit is in the right place, and I'm so happy I could give it to her sister.
So tomorrow is the 3-year anniversary of our previous match falling apart. It was devastating. Even though we were the ones who walked away. So what am I doing tomorrow? Why, I'm taking my 4 kiddos to get their pictures taken for a combined birthday-picture session!! No better way to celebrate it, in my opinion! :) (And then we have 2 baseball games after that, of course!)
It's baseball season here until the end of May, so my posts will be scarce.
I do want to mention one more thing. D's SIL's birthday was Saturday. I actually texted her and wished her a happy birthday. So did Dave. She actually replied back to both of us but simply said, "thank you". She didn't even use any punctuation. Hey, at least she replied. I texted her twice in the previous couple of weeks to see how she was doing, and she couldn't even be bothered to respond to me. This might sound so weird, but it made me feel good to wish her a happy birthday and be the bigger person. And now she can't say we forgot her birthday this year. I acutally don't think she is doing well health-wise. She did have her 9-year anniversary on her birthday of surviving a GBM (you can google it, but it's a stage 4 brain tumor with is almost always fatal within 18 months of diagnosis. She has somehow beat the odds and has made it for 9 years). She was recently in the hospital for blood clots in the lungs. So once again she survived the odds and survived the PE's, which can be fatal. She is like a cat with 9 lives.
OK that's all about her. I'm not sure if I mentioned this before, but both my older boys got straight A's for the 3rd quarter this year.....that's straight A's all year for them so far! I'm so proud! Joshua is too young to get letter grades still.
All 3 of my boys played catcher this week at their baseball games! We are literally at the baseball field 5 to 6 nights a week!
Well, that's all for now. Happy Easter to everyone!!
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